Bless me, I was counting what date would this thursday be just now, and confidently said 30th Feb! Before I realised February only has 28 days. Lye would say, God Bless Little Joel... Indeed.
Trying to wrestle with Hotmail at the moment to get my siggy to display right. It keeps throwing away my *html* at the front so the entire siggy canot display properly. What the hell... And I see no "Show the rich-text toolbar" option. Like, totally.
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Right, got that worked out. Had to open Hotmail in IE to see and edit. Totally, FireFox. You SO totally suck in some areas.
Anyway, had a AG meeting this morning. Then Mr Yap msged me asking if I was interested to help out the next 2 days for TV Studio Production. Sure I would be... But gotta reconfirm for thursday, cuz I dunno we limin and I are still going bliding. Hmm... Was playing Final Fantasy RPG in FT. Rather fun, did alot of running around. Had to play Very Easy mode! Or those monsters are far too imba for 1 player. Haha... But hell, I HATE the loading code. Its like: 1-2-3-4-5-6-7-8-9-10-19-20-13-23-5884-7-60-0-1-34-13-8-137096 or something like that! Imagine having to type THAT everytime you wanna load your character. Hell. Miss one and they say Wrong Code, and you can go all over yourself trying to type that again. And ALL quests you;ve done are reset, and you only keep the items on your main character and your money. Woo hoo, aye. And one of those NPCs (some character who's supposed to help me), she was supposed to die and ressurect on her own everytime. But for the first time I saw today, since loading, they actually said she DIED and I failed her quest. I was like, o.O - totally, dude. Totally.
Still a fun game though.
Ok FireFox and REALLY getting on my nerves. Its diabling ALL my html codes. Had to post my blog in IE!!
7:57 PM
Monday, February 27, 2006
Day 8
Its been a week since I started blogging again! Woot ^^ Congratulate myself. Pardon me, I do that sometimes. You know, self rewarding?
Well, ever since I got MY Johari window up yesterday, a GRAND TOTAL of 1 person has done it! Oh yea... I put it in my MSN nick too! Cool aye...
Anyway, I just finished a book I found lying in my bookshelf (decided to re-read them actually) "Catcher in the Rye" - dunno if anybody has read it before? It isn't really a great book, but well it counts for something I guess. It essentially about this guy Caufield Holden who's flunked yet another school, and talks about his life at which he decides to "not go home till Wednesday (cos Wednesday is when the school will send the letter to his parents saying he's flunked out)". During this span of time he goes around town, feeling depressed and "not in the mood" half the time, and talk about girls and guys around him being flitty as such. Well he's the type of guy with lots of big and crazy ideas, but ends up not completing them because of one reason or another. In the end he finally decides to go home, and well thats about it.
Well about what I did today... Had a briefing in the afternoon about teh study trip... filled up forms...(Mrs Lim kept stressing we are oh so lucky cos the school's spending way more on us than the average TP student, for this course and study trip and all) And had our groups (Me, Jie Xian, Jan, Cheryl - Cheryl was so happy, she said she don't need to do anything like that... Ahahhaa... Tsk tsk). We're supposed to have 2 sessions for discussion during the trip, and we'll be assessed based on them.
THEN, we're also to present our Study Trip after we come back, somewhere in the term period. Right smack in my SIP. What can I make of THAT?
And then we're supposed to attend a presentation ceremoney on March 15th cos the China MOE is handing over books to our MOE. Right... and we're supposed to set up booths then to explain introduce and roughly present our group project in module 2.
Whew...
Oh great, my pizza just got burnt in the oven!
6:10 PM
Sunday, February 26, 2006
Day 7
I swear, kelly's the best friend I've ever had... She's real nice and sweet, not to say she takes out time to make sure you're ok... Ahahaha... Just had to say this ^^
Well anyway, not much happening today, but I did see something real amazing in the papers today. Well it was saying the NYP scandal video is now out on DVD in M'sia, and if thats not bad enough, there are actually T-SHIRTS, MUGS and what-nots of Tammy (the gal).
My god!
6:47 PM
Saturday, February 25, 2006
Day 6
Listening to Fuhen by Rin (Samurai 7 Ending Theme), its a really nice song, and the mood sorta got me into the feeling of self reflection...
(Profoundity warning)
I feel very mixed inside right now.
I think the thing I need to do right now is to overcome myself.
I cannot, and will not forget relations. It would seem as if I'm unfaithful, if I do not carry on this what seems to others, the only right path for me to take; and to myself, an obligation.
But when were feelings and rrelations ever an obligation, in these circumstances?
I don't know if its me suddenly withdrawing at the apex of this relation; or I have really found the truth to what I had been feeling all this while. Was it mere friendship?
I could pursue as my heart desired (would that be my personality, or is that a flaw?) - I may have seen a light in the tunnel ahead. But again we never be too sure.
Should I strive for my ideals, my freedom - or should I be entangled in the endless web of obligations - to myself, to those around me?
The answer may be obvious, but can I truly overcome myself?
9:25 PM
Friday, February 24, 2006
Day 5
Did nothing much today, but discovered Drow Ranger was an OWNsome hero.
Haha just came back from Orchard. Met limin there for dinner, and talked some. Lol... I have a sense she'll be my nexxt best buddy la. SO crappy. Haha!
Anyway, another reflection:
Like Jan told me yest... its not the length of time that matters... I've been seriously thinking tru... is she really my ideal? Do I have an obligation "cos i've known her for so long?" All this while... I found the answerto be quite in the negative... Hmm...
8:33 PM
Thursday, February 23, 2006
Day 4
Whew 2.2 was concluded today. MEP paper - finished and checked in 25 mins. Quite simple - again, you reap what you sow. =)
Went for a movie with Janelle and Ariel after that. But went for lunch at some Italian Vegetarian restaurant (Boma Deli is it?) for lunch - truly "exciting" dish. Super spicy. All in all, quite ok. Lol...
Final Destination 3 - goes in with a bang, good amount of squishy gore, and impacts you right to the core. Bam bam bam. Loved the way they shot and edited the violent deaths. Takes alot of skill ya know.
Should go watch it some time for those who haven't.
5:06 PM
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
Day 3
Finally I could UNLEASH all my stored up information thats been going around in my head about Cross Cultural Communications today.
Lol... Well the paper was today. And there's only one sentence to say it all: I came, I saw, I conquered. I was like, I went in, saw the paper, was sure the answers were all in my head, plowed through the questions, and left after 1 hour. Hell yea it felt so good. Like, OWNAGE.
Okok enough.
I'd say it easy if you studied and listened in class... Kelly was not so confident about it yesterday, but hey she did fine today! (I said she could do it! ^^)
Talking to moOn and jan now... maybe catching a movie tmr after e exam with jan and ariel. Ha. Guna run through MEP one last time later~
(Again for those in the know)
Lol yea... like valentine told me yest... If I don't make a move and try, I'd never know... Maybe I should, and not look back or regret. Can I do it?
12:50 PM
Tuesday, February 21, 2006
Day 2
Day 2 of back to blogging. Well done myself!
Today was the Medicorp TV interview! Thought 1 hour was enough to get there - apprently not. Had to take a cab, and still reached the reception counter only on time. But in the end, there turns out to be no worries at all. People there are quite relaxed, at least over this. Cos I was told to wait, "HE is coming down soon," (what the receptionist told me), and turns out that it was 2 young ladies who came instead.
And the receptionist thought I was female. (She shouted Miss JOEL?! when the two ladies came for me)
Well actually I forgot to mention the taxi fare. From Novena to MediaCorp. At first I was looking at the meter as it turned in towards MediaCorp - 4.70. Cool, cos I've got 4.80 in shillings. Then it turned 4.80. Reaching Reception! But when it finally reached, it read 4.90. Dammit! Handed over my 10 bucks instead. Wanted to save a sec or two not having to wait for change!
Well anyway the walk in was quite long. 2 buildings, past some stairs, and the Annex Building was all the way behind. Wow... Anyway did I mention, the 2 ladies who accompanied me, one of them looks quite sweet and cute. =P Name's Melissa, I gathered, and same age as me. Just a comment! (No Kelly i'm not lecherous!)
Well they had me sit watching some LOST while I waited for my interviewer. Yea I feel quite Lost as it is in there.
Well my interviewer was Michelle, now she's coming across as a very powerful lady. Nice though. But like she describes, loud, direct. Yes I can see. Haha... Felt more like a talk to understand me than an interview. Went well, I'd say.
Went over to Specialist centre to meet Kelly and Nikky for revision. Went through the notes all right, and we were basically talking. Headed back around 5+, and along the way Kelly and I were talking about her OWNING CS Bots (well done Kelly ;P) and me telling her about DotA. Yes dear we'll go LAN together someday... someday... =D Well on the bus I got "educated" on more songs (and Kelly just found out I don't just listen to Chinese songs, which she thought was obvious - HEY!! XD), and she suddenly brought up the NYP sex scandal. Ahaha.
I tell ya, they really look like amatuerish pr0n makers.
7:28 PM
Monday, February 20, 2006
Day 1
Chinese Newsriting paper was today! *makes a sound* Moderate difficulty I guess... Kelly told me to go there and ace it, I certainly hope I did! x)
Had a 'CCC intensive day' with Kelly today. Ahahaha... She kept praising me! Make me blush only -pout Lol... *still remembers I might get Crab legs for b'dae present* =P
Around 2 days back (think so) Moon suddenly came online and MSN me - the same old question I ABSOLUTELY dread. "How many papers you have?" Cos she always go into one of her jealous-upset-funny moods after I tell her how many I have, which is always lesser than hers. x) And I cannot don't tell her, cos she would tell me to "just say la"... Hahaha! Well this time around I have 3 papers (just cleared one), and luckily she wasn't upset (yet) about that. But in the end she still foud a reason to go into one of her moods cos I have 1 paper that starts in the afternoon, but all of hers start in the morning! Wahahahah... Super cute can she. Hmph!
(Warning: The bottom section gets deep - probably only people in the know would understand? =P)
Lots of people have been asking me since some time back - why have I not made a move? Seriously, I don't know... I keep feeling uncertain, low confidence when I feel "Yes this is the moment, I shall make the move now!", and end up not getting any further than what I am at right now. Sad... And the timer is still ticking away. Like, approx 1 year and a little more left ya.
What should I do? Right now I feel I can make a move... but will I be able to?
7:29 PM
14 ThinGs tO knOw abOut Me
Name:
Joel
Nickname:
hOrse
Gou Xiong
Lao Fu Zi
Location:
Singapore
Sex:
Male
Religion:
Naturalist
Birthday:
3rd July 1986
Zodiac:
Cancer
Occupation:
Student
Contact Me:
lameable.jo@gmail.com
MSN
brotherhood_of_nod@hotmail.com
Status
Blessed-ly Attached 081106 to Wang PeiShi~ <3
Favourites
~ Being with my Darling~
~ Play MMORPG
~ Write song, play guitar
~ Learn new stuff
~ Sleep
