I only want to be with just YOU forever~ - Your Guardian Angel: Gah. I'm pessi-mood-istic.

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

Gah. I'm pessi-mood-istic.

Was in a bad mood yesterday. Like, half depressed, half frustration. With what, out of what, no idea.

Think I shouldn't talk about issue in the heart when I'm in such a mood - my erratic behavior just confuses me, annoys others, makes me paranoid, and THEN depresses a whole lot more out of me.

One of these days, paranoia is so going to shave half my lifespan off.

I ask myself: What do you want, Joel?

I bring up issues, then tell myself they are trivia (which they are), tells others, bring up to others, amplify the emotions, and get the equation of internal conflict. Nice one, Joel. Zz.

I need to stop thinking so much, I need to stop my imagination running wild.
I need to be more firm. Especially on myself.
I need to have more faith, and don't worry unnecessary, worry about wild things, speculations.

My poor darling - have to put up with all this nonsense in me. =/ Dar, ru guo mei you ni zai wo shen bian pei zhe wo, zi chi wo, wo zhen de bu zhi dao, zen me ban cai hao. =X

Miss my darling alot. Alot.

9:17 AM